When you find the one that you expect to live the rest of your life with. Your best friend, your lover, you're everything. One that is going to share everything with you. I was 5 1/2 months pregnant with our beautiful son when this incredible man passed away. He was never to see his son. To experience his life as a father. To see his son grow into a man. He was 29. 4 days before his 30th birthday and 5 months after my mom passed away. If it were not for the blessing in my belly that he had left behind one never knows where I would be. The happiness of giving birth to our son, knowing my mom and my love would never be there to see him grow into a fine man.
Your world changes in a blink of an eye.
If you want to walk with me, through the storm, the sun does come out. I will not lie, There are days when the rain comes with a vengeance. The next day the Sun is shining Brighter than you have ever seen it before.
My mom was my best friend. She suffered a life with bi polarism. She was the strongest woman I knew. Despite her illness, her mothering skills were beyond any other. She went through so much. Electric shock treatment, so many medications, in and out of hospitals and being at the mercy of others. For myself there is not a day goes by that I don't miss her. She dies 5 months before the love of my life. She was always there for me no matter what she was going through. It comes with ease that as much as I miss laying in her arms, her death was a piece for her and myself. NO MORE SUFFERING! The mental health system failed her. There just was not enough knowledge.
The other picture you see is my dog Gizmo. Unconditional love. We did almost everything together. What a personality. It didn't matter if we were walking the beach or laying together watching t.v., he was happy. There was not a moment that he didn't put a smile on my face. I swore the day I had to put him down, I would never get another dog. Today I have four. The one that Gizmo grew up with and 3 rescues. You couldn't ask for more love. I am so blessed to have the life I have with my boys, my dogs, my businesses and all that life has to offer.
Grief comes in as our bodies allow. Go slow. Don't allow others to push you. This is your journey.
jENNIFER VAUTHRIN, m.P.c.c., r.p.c. JENnifer@soulutionscounselling.com (604) 315-2440